Indeed!
1. I see depression setting in, I see the perfection of the devil's plans for your life playing out; robbing you of your faith, taking away the fear of God, and turning you into an Atheist subconsciously and eventually a conscious one.
The source and origin of it all are; you chose religion instead of Christ. You failed to set your eyes on the cross alone and allowed in the social and internet influence and ungodly, negative energy.
Religion and social, the internet has caused many their salvation and heaven whilst those who set their eyes on the cross and Christ alone has remained in the Lord waxing strongly despite all the bad and negative energies round about them, on the internet and social..... media.
2. Your life and spiritual life are going through a phase of great trial and temptation all around but I see you failing this test because you never saw it coming, it never dawn on you that every leap of faith and growth comes with trials, test, and trying times.
3. Don't eat your glory/future today, grow it, nurture it instead for a better and more rewarding tomorrow.
To whom much is given must is expected.
Bless you
Jesus is Lord.