1. As you struggle, long, and pray to find a final destination, a place of rest and peace for yourself moving from place to place be careful, trust no one, be on your guard to not let no one take advantage of you, consciously or subconsciously.
I can see you are a private person, sensitive, perfectionist-ish, and selective and this is both a weakness and strength.
2. Once beaten twice shy.
The mistake of the past, the vulnerability, the weakness, the ignorance, the nonchalant attitude, the failure, the unnecessary battles, and struggle, attacks, the spiritual/physical wandering in the journey of life, and the upper hand the enemy had over your life and destiny are now rewritten because you've chosen the path of being spiritually ' woke ' and " intentional ' in your spiritual walk hence consciously fleeing from every sin and act that empower the devil and enemies over your life and destiny, spiritually and physically.
You can now rest assured of more victory and dominion in your life, over your spiritual journey, and battles, and in your walk with the Lord.
Congratulations!
3. You possess a very strong and determined mind, therefore, always be careful of what you wish for, and above all, live within your means and your life would be devoid of unnecessary troubles, sorrows, pains, failures, disappointment, and frustration, and depressions.
Live above your means and always start with you can finish and then, have your life and days filled with avoidable troubles, sorrows, disappointment, struggles, depressions, and frustration, et Al.
Keywords; live within your means, never start what you can't finish, don't even entertain such in your heart.
4. The holy spirit, God is not pleased with you as, before heaven, you are considered an ungrateful, selfish, and ingratitude person. I quote you ;
Quote:...That how could I have come for a weekend program and all I could ask for was payment for accommodation, hasn't he been good to me, he continued like he was listing out things. I felt so bad and guilty.
The bibles say, seek first the kingdom of God and all other things would be added unto---but you've deviated from this, your priority now is all about that specific need, you now care less about God and having him first above all other things and your earthly needs.
God is not happy and this has kept him away from you, depriving you of his full grace, mercy, presence, favor, glory, and love. He said you are an ungrateful one who's refused to acknowledge his goodness in your life and his unconditional love for you so far.
Anyway, let's cut all he said into a summary and seek a speedy solution lest the Lord departs from you wholly.
Daughter! ? You shall go on your knees tonight, all night saying to God ' I am sorry, forgive me, have mercy on me...".
Ps 51, 7 times.
Forget all your needs and whatever uncomfortable situation you think you are in now and go cry out to God for his mercy. You can't afford a day without his presence and mercy. None can!
5. Anything you put on your body or wear, you do, and strive for that attracts and pleases the or this world causing them to hail or praise know that such belong and is from the devil hence the end is destruction, death, and sorrow.
Watch what you do and whom you represent in character, the way you talk, dress, and live as any one of these that attract or pleases the world is death.
Bless you.
Jesus is Lord.